Haven't been on this because nothing specific came to mind whenever I decided to log in. Anyway I said months ago that I wanted to shave my head and now when I think about it, I was wrong. I think it would end up with me looking like a baby face military dude or some Sinead O'Connor type chick. Something like that. I'm only saying this because I felt like my hair was a nuisance yesterday. Cutting it short will be enough. One more thing.......I really like Tyson chicken burgers. I actually have had numerous discussions where I mentioned having one box for breakfast, one for lunch, and one for dinner. I need better self control though. I should go to sleep. Thanks for staying up with me jumbled thoughts. It's always scrambled when I'm awake at this hour.

Happy Father's Day! To my Dad and other dads or father figures I know. I gave a card to my Dad. It's one of the nicest father's day cards I've ever seen. I don't think there are enough words to express that kind of thanks.

So two things I have to vent about before I end this post is waiting for something and wary friendships.

You know that feeling of waiting for something or anticipating for something and it turns out kind of lame once you finally see it or experience it? Yeah hate that feeling.

Then with friends or friend, I tried to cheer up one of them the other day and it seemed confusing. At one side I felt bad for not showing more concern, but I also felt like this friend only talked to me because I was the last resort. So maybe we're both wrong. But I'm too sympathetic towards people I am close to, so alot of the words from this friend resonate with me alot. And now I just want to be more thoughtful towards this person.

Anyway kind of a laid back mood. Off to dinner.

I have a new strategy. Make a list of goals. If I accomplish them, I will cross them out. If all are crossed out, I'll come up with a bigger goal that I have to achieve at least by this year. Something like learn how to make and sew a really nice handbag for myself. See if that works.

Since semester's done, read alot and thought alot. I read something online about a person not feeling comfortable when his/her roommates who are Hispanic switch from English to Spanish. The person felt butted out of the conversations when they switched since he/she don't speak the other language. When I asked someone else about this, she brought up a similiar situation. It was when the person I knew said she went to the dentist and her dentist (who is Vietnamese) would speak Vietnamese while she was getting her teeth cleaned. It wasn't that unusual, but she didn't like it so she has decided to go to another dentist. This happens alot in America and I'm used to it since my parents switch languages sometimes as well. I can see how someone can be uncomfortable about it. I have to question both sides though. What about speaking in the other language makes it uneasy? Then to the bilingual person, is it necessary to switch that often?

I thought maybe it's not just by language either when it comes to this. I mean when it comes to speaking, I'm sure we all relate better if we're on the same page. Yeah there are language barriers, but what I'm talking about is all mannerisms or the way you talk. The guy I liked in class, who is kind of a jerk, was very sarcastic. And I thought maybe if I kind of talked to him in a similiar tone, he would think I was cool. But it came out sounding too cynical to me, it was weird. That's a lesson to myself to never try to change for someone to like you. Also I am not good at being sarcastic. So to what I was saying, I wonder if changing the language or even talking in all slang is something we don't have to tolerate or should we say something about it?

Is it unappropriate in the states to not speak English in businesses? Or even with roommates or guests who only speak English? I would feel a little confused if I didn't know what language was being spoken all of a sudden, but I can also see why some people change from one to another. Seems that it all depends on time and place. Who knows?